Behavioral Addiction

Trying to see a new perspective, trying hard to be receptive
But I’ve been plagued by this addiction, all my thoughts are so constrictive
I will go my own direction; won’t get caught in this deception

Such a burdening addiction to this dangerous affliction
There’s a looming of descension and a grinding of obsession
There’s so much opposition to this difficult position
Just another complication and emotional mutilation


Seems I never make amends, no matter how I try to cleanse
Seems I never can defend mistakes enough to ever win
I want to hide and turn away from all these things that led astray


Such a burdening addiction to this dangerous affliction
There’s a looming of descension and a grinding of obsession
There’s so much opposition to this difficult position
Just another complication and emotional mutilation


Such a burden pulling down, adding just another pound
Why put this on myself, it makes it worse, it never helps
Far too long this has gone on, making everything feel wrong

Written June 1st, 2005

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